I think the depression I was in for the last week is beginning to subside, although that could just have to do with the fact that it's now the weekend and I have a fabulous party to go tonight. A black and white cocktail party for Jessie's birthday!

It almost makes me feel like an adult in some ways. Everyone actually wearing nice clothes, and not just something they found in the back of their closet. I actually bought a pair of Nine West stiletto slingbacks for the occasion. Okay, so they're not Jimmy Choos or Manolo Blahniks, but at least I didn't buy them at Payless right? And my dress is adorable. I just need to find some sort of gold hair accessory in the next 7 hours to complete the look.

Maegen and I watched the most adorable movie last night, Paris, Je'taime. It's actually a collection of short films done by different directors all about love in Paris. I don't normally buy into cliches (okay well maybe I do a little, I'm not going to outwardly lie in a journal!) but how amazing would it be to actually fall in love in Paris! I think I may be in love with falling in love. Is it wrong that it scares me think I may never fall in love again?

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our every reality is shattered, and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

I don't know who said that, but it's so right on! The moment you realize you've fallen in love is like no other moment in the world. I would give almost anything to feel that again.

But I would not give up Scott for that. Falling in love with him was just about the easiest thing I've ever done, and for the first time in my life someone fell in love with me at the same time, just as effortlessly. There were no games, no back and forth, no wondering if it was actually love or not... it was just there, pure and simple and wonderful.

And then I have to go and question it!

Nevermind, I'm in a better mood than I have been for a while I'm not going to jeapordize it by focusing on all the flaws in our relationship, or at least all the flaws that I have that contribute to the rockier parts of it. At the end of the day we love each other, and that's what matters.